I've been kind of down lately. My dog isn't at school with me right now (because I'm going to Salt Lake for five days ... he had to go home :( ), school is more stressful than ever, I miss Scott times a million ... every time I see my friends' boyfriends leave the dorm in the morning ... anytime I see boys walk past my room ... anytime I see a male - I miss him, and my friends are all changing. We're all busy; they all complain about being busy ... but have no problem getting drunk every night - speaking of which, my friends who didn't drink before ... they're alcoholics now. No one wants to go out and just DO SOMETHING! They either want to get drunk or stay in and order pizza. Oh yea, and this life of mine - it's all this giant competition! Everything I do I am being competed with! By my best friends! They have to look better than me, spend more money than me, do better than me, take my genious ideas and pitch them to a huge contact; they have to have a "better relationship" than me, dress better than me (not hard ... ), meet better people than me, do their hair the way I do mine just to prove that theirs is better! I G E T I T! (I'm obviously in a bad mood :) ...). I'M JUST SO FRUSTRATED WITH LIFE! So tonight! I decided to read Philippians - one of my Favorite books - and it says, "Be brave when you face your enemies. Your courage will show them that they are going to be destroyed, and it will show you that you will be saved. God will make all of this happen, and he has blessed you. Not only do you have faith in Christ, but you suffer for him. You saw me suffer, and you still hear about my troubles. Now you must suffer in the same way." This makes me feel slightly better. I can win. God, help me prove myself.